"its not worth it."

"its not worth it." i can't keep track of how many times i've heard or said those words this semester. that the sin in life just isn't freakin worth it. its not worth the momentary feelings of satisfaction for the separation from god that follows. its not worth each individual fight to understand mercy and grace. its not worth jeopardizing our walk with christ. its not worth setting yourself up for worldly struggles that we were not created for. i know the sin in me has been used for huge amounts of growth and learning hard lessons. which is something that cannot be replaced. and something to appreciate in retrospect. but in those moments where we blatantly choose sin and lies over truth, that its just not worth it. not one bit.