counting down!

i graduate college in 272 days from today. oh my.

i feel stuck. as i begin my last fall semester, questions about post-college plans are already filling conversations. why do i need to know what i'm doing in june if i don't even know what i'm doing next week? anyways, i find myself torn. i want adventure. i want big changes and new experiences. i want to move to a new place and allow myself to grow up and mature outside of any safe bubble. however, the comfort and security of houston or austin is also appealing. being known and safe in an environment. having a guaranteed job and some sort of network of people in place.

i feel like reese witherspoon in sweet home alabama... that sounds real lame. my life would be great in a new place. i am sure of that. it would be hard and challenging, but i trust i would find a sweet sense of independence and boldness. but home fits too. being able to go somewhere and people already knowing your name. no explanations of the past needed. comfort.

i realize no decision is needed right now. i just wish the questions would stop. don't think i'm not preparing though. i'm keeping up with my options... with several non-profit job websites bookmarked, plenty of yl connections, and school connections, i know there is a job in an environment that is just right for me. i don't feel as if its my decision though. i'm considering god's plan in this too. so when people ask my plans for after college, my recent response has become, "i'm not sure yet. guess it depends which state god puts me in."